haven't done this in a while

so I'm about to go shopping for things to turn a shed into a livable space with a friend...and I'm leaving the house in daylight in a skirt, pretty top, and foam breasts...makeup, etc. I decided I'm done being someone else. I'm being thrown out in a few days and I'm going to be me. I'm going to do what I have to do to be me but by god I'm going to be me. No more bullshit. I am more than just someones toy, or their jar of clay. I'm a human. An individual. Someone who can't be bought, persuaded, or changed. I decide when or if I change. So now I sit here ready to go to the hardware store as girly me. Fuck the hardware store, fuck mom and dad, hell if my friend taking me doesn't like it fuck him too! (as a side note he's not that type of person) I'm my own person and no longer heed other's thoughts on who they think I should be. If some day I decide I need surgery for something or another I'll do it. If some day I decide I don't...I won't. If I decide I want to work here or there i will. If I decide to live a wonderful life I will. I'm amazing. Just watch and see. I'll love you. Just wait and see. There are things I can do that nobody in the world could dream of...just try to do them...you will see. I am an awesome, amazing, wonderful creature who is not a mistake, not WRONG, not MESSED UP IN THE HEAD, not EVIL, and not FULL OF THE DEVIL. I'm always going to be me and always going to be this great person. If you MOTHER don't like it...it doesn't matter. It simply doesn't matter. It won't change anything. It won't take my happiness. It won't take my self esteem. It won't take my confidence. It won't make me depressed. It won't take my home. It won't effect my identity. It won't do ANYTHING. It just won't matter. It will slip away like dust in the wind, never to be seen again. Negative words will not affect me any more. Especially those from my parents. This struggle is over. I have won. Now it's in my past. I love you all. Thank you for reading.